One morning as I was meditating on all the Lord has shown me these past few months I was struck with the magnitude of them. Some are so huge to me and I could not imagine how to be different or make the changes I needed to. Once again, looking within myself for the ability to do it.;-)
I stopped my 'old pattern' of thinking and began to praise Him for showing me these things and thanking Him because I knew if He revealed them to me He was going to show me how to 'live' it. I didn't need to fret, I just needed to keep my eyes on Him and let Him lead me, in His timing. Yeah me!
This is the devotional I read directly after the above interaction.
Never let your inadequacies be a handicap. Give them to Me, and they will become My opportunity to demonstrate My power operating through you. I would never have a chance to help you if you were always self-sufficient and capable of meeting every challenge.
Be ready to move in faith every time you sense inadequacy, and in each experience, as you trust Me, you will experience what is meant by the 'larger life'. I will fill all your lack with My divine undertaking and bring you out with testimony unto My name.
(Frances J. Roberts, Progress of Another Pilgrim)
And He said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for My strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefor will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
(2 Corinthians 12:9)
All He asks is that we give them to Him and they become an opportunity for HIM to demonstrate His power. I can do that. Can you? Why not take some time alone with Him and take all those weaknesses and inadequacy and give them to Him.
Here was the list I came up with that morning, not exhaustive, I assure you ;-)
*lack of strength and health
*lack of wisdom
*lack of ability to know how to live the new 'restful' life You are calling me too
*school . . .training . . .discipling
*being loving, listening
*sowing into relationships with the children
*living in 'unity' and with one mind and heart
*finding rest for my soul
*living in the moment
*not looking within me for the how-tos
*finding rest in YOU ALONE
*not running off on my own, ahead of You
*not being so 'driven'