Thursday, October 1, 2009

In Case You Had Any Doubt . . .

I just thought I would share a teensy peak into my world right now. I need some lightening up and I want to share what a sense of humor God has.

Today has been a particularly difficult day. My 'feelings' have reigned, depression has reigned, pain has reigned, weariness, hopelessness, loneliness, self-pity, condemnation. . .you name it, if it's ugly, it has reined! Everything but the TRUTH!

Brian just left with the kids to go to Costco. Something chocolate and cold sounded really, really good. I knew we had some ice cream in the freezer that the kids must have brought home from grandma and grandpa's. (we don't buy ice cream very often, we make a really good one) As soon as they left I went to the freezer, noticed it was 25% fat free, which turned me off, and it was freezer burned. Also, when I looked at the ingredients, something my kids pray I never do, I dumped it! Sugar is horrible for adrenal fatigue, if I was going to poison myself I was at least going to do it with something I would enjoy! I knew I could make my own, but that would take 25 minutes, depression can't wait 25 minutes!

So I thought about our coconut milk ice cream recipe and said to myself, "self, we could make a coconut milk shake!" Brilliant!

Into the blender:

1 can coconut milk
3 squirts agave nectar
3-4 T. dark cocoa powder
lots of ice

Blend until smooth, creamy, cold and chocolaty!

Oh, the funny part? Well, I am notorious for sticking my spoon in the blender, risking spoon and blender each time. I just had to taste it, the blender was not that full, so my spoon hit the blade and chocolate coconut milkshake went flying everywhere! I stood there stunned, chocolate, coconut milkshake dripping from my hair and face. Plastered all over my clothes and bare feet. I went to the mirror and laughed out loud. I so wish I had taken a picture, but vanity won. (come on I have been crying all day, you wouldn't have done it either) Not to mention, I, even in the depression, chose healthy over junk. Who does that? It takes a pretty loopy mama!

I came back to enjoy my milkshake only to look up and see chocolate drips on both sides of the shelves inside the cupboard that was open, all over the fridge and the counter top. Once I cleaned it up, then I enjoyed the chocolate, coconut milkshake!

We will discuss the depravity of turning to chocolate in another post. For now, I'm smiling and my tummy is full! At least I made a healthy choice physically;-)


Linda said...

Michelle that was quite a visual! I am at least glad that it made you laugh. Yes, I think God allowed that to bring a chuckle to you.

So sorry that you had been depressed and crying, heart is sad for you. But I am going to pray that you will feel better soon.

Linda @ Truthful Tidbits

Christie said...

I'm glad I'm not the only one who struggles through "feelings" sometimes! I always KNOW that things will be better if I keep my eyes focused on Christ, but somehow that's so hard in practice!

I'm ABSOLUTELY going to try this recipe! I can't do dairy, and my coconut milk ice cream at Kroger is WAY too expensive for more than a veeeeerrry rare splurge. This looks super-yummy! Thanks for sharing!

Camille said...

You really are the sweetest...I will pray for you tonight. Hang in there!
In His Love,

Misty M. said...

Glad you had something to laugh about. Hope you feel better soon. Sorry you were so down.
If it helps, you reminded me of something similar that happened to me not too long ago...Maybe it is good for a laugh-
We frequently use storebought salsa in a big jug in several recipes at our house. I was in the kitchen cooking and if I remember right I had had a long day. I was tired, didn't feel like cooking, was probably nauseas from the pregnancy and dealing with a disobedient toddler. Anyway, I grabbed the salsa out of the fridge and hurriedly shook it up as I always do before opening it. Only something happened. Someone had apparently put the salsa in the fridge with the lid barely screwed on. As I gave the entire jug a giant shake up and down really hard, I was suddenly struck by a large mass of cold salsa right on top of my head. It was dripping down my hair onto my face and glasses and I just stood there stunned! As I adjusted to what had happened I looked around.... and discovered that the entire kitchen had been splattered. It was all over the floor (to the dog's delight) and was dripping off of the stove, cabinets, fridge, dishwasher and was even in the sink.
My hubby came home only a few minutes later to discover me there with the salsa in my hair. At least I got an immediate hot shower, something I needed desperately anyway. lol I also needed a good laugh.
Hope you had one too.
Take Care!

Farmgirl Cyn said...

this was pretty cute, michelle! you could have sat down and cried, but you didn't....not sure that i, myself could have laughed!

Stacie, A Firefighter's Wife said...

LOL! At least it missed your laptop!

Lynnette Kraft said...

Okay now that was funny - except for the part about feeling so down and out. That's how that adrenal fatigue is. I've felt it, and watched it in my son and actually now in my daughter a bit. I think that life is just too darn stressful and it makes me wanna just go to a deserted island and live off of coconuts, fish and sunshine. Wouldn't that be fun? (for a while anyway)

Good for you - choosing healthy over junk!

true blessings said...

Too funny!!! I can just picture you ! I hope you have a blessd day today..praying for you~YOu should have taken a picture and post it as your header!!!!!!!!!

true blessings said...

forgot to add.."She looketh well covered in chocolate" LOL

Connie said...

I'm glad you didn't bend the spoon - I think I have. Glad you could enjoy your healthy choice after such a clean-up job.

Cheesemakin' Mamma said...

that sounds yummy! I'm laughing with you, now. Thanks for sharing. I'm glad I'm not the only one who has done that!

Raisingarrows said...

You have my prayers and love (and a few giggles).
Amy @ Raising Arrows