Beloved, I wish above all things that thou mayest prosper and be in health, even as thy soul prospereth.
(3 John 2)
I have sensed from the beginning of this whole ordeal with my health that it is was way more than just needing to find the right 'physical' thing to fix. It goes so much deeper. I have never known my Father to deal with me just in one area of my being. We are spirit, with a soul who lives in a body. He doesn't just address one without the others! That is what He is doing right now and I am so excited with all that He has revealed to me already, and I feel as though I have just begun! My hope and expectation is in Him and I am so excited, can you tell?!
I can honestly say for the first time in my life I see all the puzzle pieces being put together and so much is beginning to make sense. I am refraining from sharing too much, as it is all still so new and so raw. I feel very vulnerable right now and believe the right thing to do is to continue to walk out what the Lord is doing before I spout all the goodness!! You know me, I don't hold anything back, so in His timing, I will pour out my heart!I am not trying to be coy, trust me! For now, He has me tucked away in the shadow of His wings, teaching, healing, delivering.
While it is an incredibly beautiful time and the promise of very, very good things for our whole family, it is also a very difficult time. I don't know where you stand on spiritual warfare. We are not the type that believe there is a devil in every corner, nor are we the type that doesn't think there is a spiritual battle going on. I do believe we have been lulled into a false sense of ignorance though, but that is another story.
For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.
As the Lord is moving in a huge way in my heart, Brian's heart and our whole families hearts, we have seen in intense increase in the realm of spiritual attacks. The more the enemy is exposed the more he gets scared and the more foolish and obvious he is! Just this past weekend I experienced a huge attack in my mind, unlike anything I have ever experienced! It was so out of the blue and so obvious that it was the enemy when the attack was over it was almost laughable. I wasn't laughing though, I am exhausted from it, maybe tomorrow I'll laugh. ;-)
All this to say that we are going to be going through some serious warfare in the next 3-4 weeks as we seek the Lord intensely, and I would love it if we could have some extra prayer cover. I know so many of you pray for me as the Lord leads and that blessed me immensely. Please continue ;-) I am also humbly asking for some of you to commit to seriously praying for Brian, myself and our family for the next 3-4 weeks. If you would like to commit to that would you mind emailing me or leaving a comment, I would so appreciate it.
I believe this is the breakthrough that we have been praying for! So much is making sense now. I literally have been walking around with my jaw dropped at the things He is showing us and the revelation that we are getting in His Word! Verses that we have always read and are familiar with have all but POPPED off the pages into our hearts with deeper meaning. I have no idea what it is going to look like on the other side of this, except that it is going to be amazing, of this I am sure!! It is so HUGE!
Thank you, dear friends. I love you all so much and am so blessed to be able to ask for your help in this journey. As you pray for us, we also pray that the Lord would bless you exceedingly and abundantly above all that you could think or ask!