Thursday, February 28, 2013

Whoa Nellie!

For years, there have been things in the past that when I talk about ‘giving thanks in all things’ I clarify, when I am being super transparent, that I am just not sure I can bring myself to thank God in/for them.

I always feel a bit of a ‘ping’ when I do this, but some things wreaked so much havoc in our lives.  The depth of the trauma so deep and so painful, I’ve teetered on giving thanks for those situations.

I would sort of waffle on that fine line of accepting the things that happened and actually trusting my Father enough to thank Him in all things.

I feel like I was able to forgive those involved.  I thought I totally accepted the situation, but did I really?  I recently heard myself say again, ‘I just don’t know if I can “thank” Him for that’.  ( I know it was not actually from His hand, but the enemy’s hand, but God allowed it)  As I said it, something just didn’t feel right.  Why don’t I thank Him?  Do I not trust Him to the uttermost?  There was unrest in my soul over it, but I felt closer than ever to saying, ‘Thank You’.

Today, reading a quote from Ann’s One Thousand Gifts Devotional

{That which I refuse to thank Christ for, I refuse to believe Christ can redeem.}

Is that what my refusal to thank Him for says?  That I don’t believe He can redeem it?  Whoa!  If this is true, and I believe it just might be, well, it feels like a dagger to my heart.  Of course I believe my Jesus can redeem all things.  When I see what He has done in my life . . . are you kidding me?

I have repented for having unforgiveness towards my Father, for accusing Him, for not trusting Him. I have thanked Him for every.single. painful circumstance in my life.  Sweet freedom and refreshment comes!

Have you been able to thank Him in ALL things??  I mean ALL things?  It’s hard, isn’t it?  I know.  It’s called radical obedience.  His Word says to ‘give thanks in all things’.  Notice it says “ALL”.  Praying for you.


Heaven's Walk said...

Great, thought invoking post, Michelle. ♥ I am slooowwwly learning to give thanks in ALL circumstances. I've been in quite a few with my mom's illness that I think "WHY, Lord...? Why did this have to happen to her?" But I attempted to give thanks for the tiniest of blessings in those situations. And as I look back on those not-so-wonderful events, I see the God-moments in them and realize that He always knows what is best for us and all things DO work out for His glory. ♥

xoox laurie

Anonymous said...

This is hard to do! Thanking Him for what He allowed into our lives. But over a year out of the situation, I am stronger. The abuse empowered me, strengthened my faith, and the role that I was forced into as financial head of our home actually prepared me for this present time. I, as you, am a strong woman, not tough, but strong. Some times I am fragile, but I know that God is filling in the weak places with His love, still has me on His wheel, molding me. Yes, I have thanked Him. It prepared me and strengthened my faith in His power. Thank you for this powerful post! Love ya!!

giovanna said...

Just found your site. Thanks for the encouragement!