Something happens—a flash from the past—reminds me of who I was, and tries to convince me it’s actually who I am. Hurts long since dealt with seem to burst my heart wide open.
In an instant I am that little girl desperate for love. Seeking ‘normal’ in my broken world. The rejections, the ‘used, tossed aside, left in a heap’ shame. It all seems to be right there—waves of tears wash over me. Chest heaving sobs I try to hide in the shower. How can this be? I know I’ve been forgiven—as far as the east is from the west.
I’m really just stunned by it all. I share it all with the man who loves me. It’s not new to him. I’m embarrassed to talk to my ‘husband’ about this. Oh, for a girlfriend to share it with, but really, who knows me better? What will he think?
He prays and listens and wipes away tear after tear. Never once repulsed by my words. He reminds me that I’ve been plunged beneath that flood and lost all my guilty stains. I am new. I am clean. No guilt or shame has an audience with me. Silence them with His great name. In the name of Jesus Christ.
I need to sit with my Father—hear His voice. Listen to what He has to say. Let His life giving word breathe life and healing and hope into my bruised heart and battered soul. What He spoke to me is the foundation of the latest Letters to My Heart.
First of all, always remember that your loving Father used those circumstances, that pain, the rejection, to protect you from what wasn’t for you and to bring you to His perfect plan for your life. It had absolutely nothing to do with you being unlovable or no good. There was nothing ‘wrong’ with you!
Michelle, you were chosen, actually picked by the only One who really matters. When others tossed you aside, your Father was right there choosing you every time.
You are holy. You have been cleansed and made whole and holy. Pure and blameless!
You are loved. Even if every earthly love fails, His love never, ever will fail. The Lord of lords and the King of kings loves you with an everlasting love—a forever love.
He loves you with an everlasting love and with loving-kindness has He drawn you
You will and are being rebuilt. You will go forth with dancing. He is your Father. He keeps you as a shepherd keeps His flock.
He has already ransomed you from the hand that was too strong for you.
Michelle, you are always loved, adored, accepted and precious in the sight of the one Who has created you.
Recognize that you have been set free. Look at your feet, there lie the chains, the guilt, the shame. You have only need to walk away from it. Hold your head up, beam with love and acceptance as you walk away, clothed in His righteousness alone. You are His girl.