Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Hold His Hand

Do you ever have one of those moments when you feel like you are in way over your head? I mean way over your head with, well, LIFE in general! Being a mom, discipling your children, being a Godly wife, a daughter of the King, a homemaker . . . everything!

Journal excerpt:

Father, I bow before You and say I do not know what I am doing here, I mean with everything . . .I feel like I am in way over my head, way beyond my knowledge. I desperately need You. I need to see Your hand leading me. Often times I feel like a scared little girl who is lost and doesn't know which way to go. But, oh, the comfort of being able to reach my helpless little hand up and know my Daddy, my Abba Father takes my hand and leads the way!

My earthly daddy is a big man, and he has big and rough hands. I remember as a little girl holding his hand. My little hand enveloped in his big, strong, rough hand. I felt so safe. I knew as long as I was holding his hand I was going to be alright.

Fast forward twenty-five plus years. I am laying on an operating table about to be 'put under'. I have just suffered a difficult miscarriage at 17 weeks. I am afraid and alone. A very big man walks up beside my bed and introduces himself as my nurse and wonders if I might want to hold his hand. Behind the mask I see such gentle eyes. As he takes my hand, I realize his hand is big, strong and rough, just like my daddy. I immediately sense my Father's comfort, all fear was gone. Once again, safe, secure, peace, I am going to be alright.

Life can be so big and overwhelming at times. I am thankful I don't have it all figured out. I thought I did for years ;-) There can be great comfort in 'not knowing' because it causes us to cling all the more to Him! His wisdom, His guidance, His mercy!

UNTO YOU, O Lord, do I bring my life.
O my God, I trust, lean on, rely on, and am confident in You.

Let me not be put to shame or [my hope in You] be disappointed;

let not my enemies triumph over me.

Yes, let none who trust and wait hopefully and look for You

be put to shame or be disappointed;

let them be ashamed who forsake the right

or deal treacherously without cause.

Show me Your ways, O Lord; teach me Your paths.

Guide me in Your truth and faithfulness and teach me,

for You are the God of my salvation; for You

[You only and altogether] do I wait [expectantly] all the day long.

Who is the man who reverently fears and worships the Lord?

Him shall He teach in the way that he should choose.

(Psalm 25:1-5, 12)




Reach your hand up and find your Father's hand right there.

Oh, and if you can't even lift your hand, no worries, He will take your hand and lead you!


J said...

Thank you, MIchelle, this encouraged me greatly at a time when I need it more than ever!

Best Life said...

What a comfort those big hands are! I wonder if that nurse realizes the blessing he is when he takes someone's hand like that. Thanks for the sweet reminder. Lisa~

Anonymous said...

I've only just discovered your blog, but I'm so glad I did! This post brought a tear to my eye. I especially liked:

"There can be great comfort in 'not knowing' because it causes us to cling all the more to Him!" I, too, used to think that I knew it all, but the Lord lovingly humbled me. It was painful at the time, but needful, for He resists the proud, but gives grace to the humble (James 4:6).

You wrote: "Oh, and if you can't even lift your hand, no worries, He will take your hand and lead you!" Amen! We can do nothing of ourselves, it's all by the Lord's grace and strength.

I've added my name to your Follows list, and I look forward to exploring your blog further!

Trisch said...

Beautiful thoughts, Michelle!

And I've found His hand so comforting, too! What a blessing that nurse is!

When I had my c-section with my 3 yods, the anesthesiologist explained everything in a fatherly tone, I just felt at such peace about it all.

HUGS to you!

May He bless your day with His presence, His everlasting arms enfolding you in His love!


Jenn @ A Country Girl's Ramblings said...

I've been feeling like I'm a bit over my head lately...Thanks for sharing this!

Rose said...

Thank you so much for writing such a lovely post! It was a blessing to me. I will put your button on my blog so I can come visit often. God bless, Rose

angela said...

Thank you so much for sharing this. I have been feeling overwhelmed alot lately... I guess I thought by now with 3 kids and 1 on the way that I would have it more together, but the older I get the more I realize that "He is the vine and I am the branch... apart from Him I can do nothing..." Sometimes I feel like I'm TRYING so hard to be everything I'm supposed to be and failing miserably, but it's then that my Father shows me how much I'm relying on me. My knowledge, my wisdom. And it is so very different from His. I am so thankful that just before I sink, He pulls me up.

Michelle (She Looketh Well) said...

Praying for you ladies who have expressed some struggles! Hang on, or let Him hold you ;-) Whatever it takes. May He bless you and keep you!

Clinging to His Faithfulness,