No Chains On Me

Ladies, I am telling you that our God is a healer, a deliverer, a restorer!!  I know some of you are still in that ‘fiery trial’ and it is hard to believe that you will ever experience freedom. I know what that feels like.

Can I, just for a moment, be that voice whispering to you from the other side, He is faithful.  You will be singing and dancing in the freedom He has given you. 

This will be your declaration soon,

I waited patiently for the Lord; and he inclined unto me, and heard my cry.

 He brought me up also out of an horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and established my goings.

 And he hath put a new song in my mouth, even praise unto our God: many shall see it, and fear, and shall trust in the Lord.  (Psalm 40:3)

I cannot stop singing this song, listen to the lyrics, so powerful!  (Video posted below)

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“No Chains On Me”  Chris Tomlin

This is the dream, a dream for the world to see You
A dream for the world to know You, to love Your name
Lift up a shout, lift up a cry to shake the ground
Shout and the walls are coming down
Yeah, we're running after You
Like a rolling stone, like a runaway train
No turning back, no more yesterdays
My heart is free, no chains on me
God, You raise me up, up from the grave
The cross before, I'm on my way
My heart is free, no chains on me
Now is the time, now is the time for freedom
Abandoned by cold religion, my heart on fire
We hear the sound, the sound of revival coming
The sound of Your people rising
Yeah, we're running after You
The walls are coming down

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I am seeing this in my life, watching the chains fall and the walls come down. I am in awe of what He is doing.  The pace, at times, surprises me.  Like a rolling stone, like a runaway train!!

He is no respecter of persons.  Your time is coming.  Wait on Him and hope in Him.  This is His desire for each of His children, freedom.  The journey is different for each of us, but freedom is His heart for you!!  My ‘fiery trial’ lasted for over 10 years, so do not despair!!

Praising Him for the freedom that is on its way in your life.

I would have despaired unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord
In the land of the living.
 Wait for the Lord;
Be strong and let your heart take courage;
Yes, wait for the Lord. (Ps. 27:13-14)

Whoa Nellie!

For years, there have been things in the past that when I talk about ‘giving thanks in all things’ I clarify, when I am being super transparent, that I am just not sure I can bring myself to thank God in/for them.

I always feel a bit of a ‘ping’ when I do this, but some things wreaked so much havoc in our lives.  The depth of the trauma so deep and so painful, I’ve teetered on giving thanks for those situations.

I would sort of waffle on that fine line of accepting the things that happened and actually trusting my Father enough to thank Him in all things.

I feel like I was able to forgive those involved.  I thought I totally accepted the situation, but did I really?  I recently heard myself say again, ‘I just don’t know if I can “thank” Him for that’.  ( I know it was not actually from His hand, but the enemy’s hand, but God allowed it)  As I said it, something just didn’t feel right.  Why don’t I thank Him?  Do I not trust Him to the uttermost?  There was unrest in my soul over it, but I felt closer than ever to saying, ‘Thank You’.

Today, reading a quote from Ann’s One Thousand Gifts Devotional

{That which I refuse to thank Christ for, I refuse to believe Christ can redeem.}

Is that what my refusal to thank Him for says?  That I don’t believe He can redeem it?  Whoa!  If this is true, and I believe it just might be, well, it feels like a dagger to my heart.  Of course I believe my Jesus can redeem all things.  When I see what He has done in my life . . . are you kidding me?

I have repented for having unforgiveness towards my Father, for accusing Him, for not trusting Him. I have thanked Him for every.single. painful circumstance in my life.  Sweet freedom and refreshment comes!

Have you been able to thank Him in ALL things??  I mean ALL things?  It’s hard, isn’t it?  I know.  It’s called radical obedience.  His Word says to ‘give thanks in all things’.  Notice it says “ALL”.  Praying for you.

Balance? What’s That

Like I shared last time, the Lord has been bringing about so much healing and restoring me to who He created me to be.

One thing that I have ALWAYS struggled with is, balance.  I am a very passionate person.  He created me this way, yet I have fought it for so long. 

You see, just like many things, each gift we have can be taken too far and when used improperly can cause problems.  For instance, being passionate is a wonderful quality.  People like me tend to be the ‘get it done’ type of people.  The ones willing to try new things and throw our whole selves into what ever we are doing.

BUT, the negative is we also can easily fall prey to drivenness, performance and perfectionism.  Where we push so hard we make ourselves sick and hurt those around us.  We push, and we push hard.  We don’t know when to stop, because we ‘need’ to be doing. We expect everyone else to be like us and push just as hard as we do.  You can see the damage the negative side of this could do, can’t you?

The negative side of ‘passionate’ has a great deal to do with how sick I was.  Since being healed and delivered, I still ‘fight’ with being passionate.  I mean, why can’t I just be balanced, you know, each day the same, even keel, just evenly going through my days?  Why do I have such crazy times and then down times?

Through a series of conversations and something I read, I believe the Lord showed me that I had the wrong idea of what balance would look like for me.  It will look all ‘calm and floaty’ for some, but not for me.  The comment that really made it clear was,

“It’s not so much about balance for people like you and me as it is about times of refreshing”  Or something to that effect.

You see, I thrive on the excitement, the chase, the thrill, the adventure.  NOTHING wrong with that.  But, the ‘balance’ to that will be taking times of refreshment, renewal, rejuvenation.  That’s where I blew it in the past.  I believed I was being lazy and unproductive and would push until I dropped.  I began to despise the passion and the needed rest.

Since seeing this, I have been enjoying and embracing who He made me to be and what I need.  I enjoy the ‘thrill’ without guilt and I soak up the ‘rest’ without any shame or guilt.  He leads me into the sometimes crazy, but then He leads me into the rest so I can recharge.  I love the ebb and flow.  I no longer resist who I am and what I need.

Sweet freedom, ladies, sweet freedom.  Do you resist who He has made you to be?  Do you wish you were like {______}?  Maybe you are fighting Him and you don’t even know it.  What is your struggle?

I’m Becoming ME!

I notice that I am becoming ME, who I was created to be, and guess what?  I like me.

I get all giddy when I see some new behavior or example of how much I have changed in the last couple of years, since my healing and deliverance.

The chains have fallen off in so many areas.  So many facets of fear, just keep falling off. I notice it in sometimes silly areas.

Like painting a piece of furniture some really fun color just because I love it.  Silly, I know, but what if it doesn’t sell?  What if nobody else likes it?  What if others think I was foolish for painting it that color?  See, those are old lies that still try to whisper, but no longer have a hold on me.  Fear of man, fear of failure, insecurity, self-doubt.

Purchasing Turquoise cowboy boots.  I mean, what self-respecting home school mama does that??  Not much practical about turquoise cowboy boots. Never mind that I LOVE them and they make my heart go pitter-patter.   I have never owned cowboy boots, never mind turquoise boots!  What will people think?  Too attention-getting?  They cost too much, am I really ‘worth’ it?  I mean, really now, a ‘gift’ for me??  So extravagant? Do you hear them?  Fear of man, insecurity, fear.  The “I somehow need to earn things” syndrome.

Waving wildly at the pizza guy on the street corner holding a sign.  Someone in the van said, ‘wave to the guy’. So I did. Wildly and with a huge smile.  Why not?  I think it is okay to enjoy life!  Life is hard and it hurts, often.  Why not lighten up a little, play, be silly.  Things I NEVER would do in the past.  Well, it’s not grown up and mature.

The children wonder what happened to their mama when she starts dancing in the kitchen, hands in the air, hip-bumping, singing, ‘that’s how we do it, that’s how we do it’.  The children reel with laughter. I continue on until we are all giggling.

Speaking the Truth with love and compassion, but also great boldness.  Taking full advantage of each and every platform the Lord gives to share HIS love.  To pray for the hurting even when it is uncomfortable or appears to be a bit bold.  I don’t care anymore.  I am not concerned with what someone else thinks, or if I will mess up or if I am missing God, or if . . . {fill in the blank}

I have been set free!  Free from so many lies.  In those moments when I can be a little crazy and have a little fun, why not??  I know these examples might seem like trivial things, but they really are not.  They are huge when you realize the freedom they represent.

So, I am far from perfect, which I will always be, but I like who He made me to be!  This alone is huge.  Years of self-hatred are being washed away.  Imagine a world, ladies, where we actually ‘love’ ourselves??  Not some vain, self-conceited, arrogant, ‘love ourselves’.  But one in which we embrace who He made us to be, and call ‘good’ what He has already called good.  What a sadness it must be to Him to have us hate ourselves. 

Repent! And renew your mind with who He says you are.  I promise, your whole perspective will change.

Next time, one teeny, tiny fact that lifted a HUGE burden.

What about you, sister?  Does any of this resonate with your heart?

It Was A Slow Fade

Ten months prior to my healing last May 19 was not really the beginning of my sickness.  Over these ten months, my physical body finally collapsed under the weight of many spiritual issues.

It took a lifetime to get that sick. It wasn’t diet or pregnancies or anything else physical, really.

It began slowly, years of whispers from the enemy through other people and circumstances.

There were many rejections over the years that convinced me that I wasn’t good enough. These programmed me to believe that if I just worked harder, did more, was better, prettier, thinner… then I would be loved. Performance began to become a way of life. If I did really, really well and did more than everybody else, maybe someone would notice and love me, accept me, pick me and choose me.

The descent into a life dominated by Fear (yes, I capitalize it because it is an evil spirit and it has a name: see 1 Tim 1:7) began slowly and subtly. The fears produced from a very insecure childhood set me up to not trust, and to fear abandonment. The fear of losing the love I did have was hard on our early marriage. As long as I held on really, really tight, I could control just about everything; or so I thought.

Jesus saved us and it was better for quite some time. Our world was a happy, held together, organized, controlled little world, but not for long. It slowly began to unravel when some pretty horrible and frightening things happened to our family. These were beyond what we could cope with, but we held on as best we could. Severe fear, stress and anxiety began to rule my heart. I didn’t see it. It was all I knew to do to cope.

Years of dealing with a rebellious son and all that goes with that. Giving birth to number four, and then number five, then an emergency ectopic pregnancy. Two 17 week miscarriages that shook my very fragile world and fragile faith. Fear was a way of life now. 

We became one, fear and I.

I did go on to give birth to three babies in three years during extremely difficult circumstances with our son.  Yes, fear was ruling my mind and heart.

More years of ups and downs with our son, mostly downs, and another difficult, and this time, painful pregnancy.

Looking back, I see my illness had little, if anything, to do with the physical, it was a full on spiritual attack that had amplified slowly over the years. I was totally ill-equipped to see it or handle it.

Oh, don’t get me wrong, I had an incredible relationship with the Lord through all of this. I was just completely and utterly blind and had been taken captive in many areas of my mind by the devil to do his will.    ( see 2 Tim. 2:26)

It was a slow fade; a long term plan of my enemy to steal, kill, and destroy my life and each member of my family.

I can honestly say my healing and deliverance was nothing but an awesome display of my Father’s mercy towards us. Our family was spiraling down due to my health. Hope was something that had become foreign to me, by then. As deep of a slimy pit as I was in, I had no idea just how deep and how it was our whole family that needed deliverance.

Last May, when we began to have the Truth poured into our hearts by the bucketful, it was nothing short of MERCY. Slowly, for the first time in many years it was all beginning to finally make sense. Puzzle pieces were finally fitting together.

When my mom tells the story, she uses the word miraculous. While it looked “miraculous” because I was sick one day and healed the next, it really wasn’t a miracle. I reserve the word miracle for things like, someone raised from the dead, a new limb grown where one was not – the miracle of new birth.

No, this wasn’t a miracle, it was simply the power of the Word. Truth. It was the Truth that made me free and continues to make me free.  (John 8:32)  Once the spiritual lined up, my body lined up. My body didn’t need the healing as much as my spirit needed cleansing (2 Cor. 7:1) and once that happened, once the Fear, the Rejection, the Accusation, etc. was gone, my body began to function like it was supposed to.

Praising our faithful and merciful God for one year of continued health and continued deliverance!

Psalm 30

I will extol thee, O LORD; for thou hast lifted me up, and hast not made my foes to rejoice over me.

O LORD my God, I cried unto thee, and thou hast healed me.

O LORD, thou hast brought up my soul from the grave: thou hast kept me alive, that I should not go down to the pit.

Sing unto the LORD, O ye saints of his, and give thanks at the remembrance of his holiness.

For his anger endureth but a moment; in his favour is life: weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning.

And in my prosperity I said, I shall never be moved.

LORD, by thy favour thou hast made my mountain to stand strong: thou didst hide thy face, and I was troubled.

I cried to thee, O LORD; and unto the LORD I made supplication.

What profit is there in my blood, when I go down to the pit? Shall the dust praise thee? shall it declare thy truth?

Hear, O LORD, and have mercy upon me: LORD, be thou my helper.

Thou hast turned for me my mourning into dancing: thou hast put off my sackcloth, and girded me with gladness;

To the end that my glory may sing praise to thee, and not be silent. O LORD my God, I will give thanks unto thee for ever.

Out of the Pit

For innumerable evils have compassed me about: mine iniquities have taken hold upon me, so that I am not able to look up; they are more than the hairs of mine head: therefore my heart faileth me. (Psalm 40:12)

I have been looking back at last year’s journals and posts. Beginning with the last week in March through the middle of May, were the absolute worst eight weeks of the Adrenal Fatigue/Exhaustion. Which is hard to believe, because 10 months earlier when I officially “crashed”, I was shockingly sick.

I began to spiral downward. Nothing, absolutely nothing was working to stop it either. Not the hundreds of dollars each week in quality supplements. Not the impeccable diet or the copious amounts of physical rest. (I say ‘physical’ because there was zero internal rest going on) Nothing.

I shake my head in awe today, when I look back. How He took me from the pit and put me where I am today just astounds me!

He brought me up also out of an horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and established my goings. (Psalm 40:2)

One thing that was so shocking to me is that it was 100% spiritual. Oh, I know we don’t like to talk about that, do we? For some reason we feel accused when someone mentions that maybe a sickness is a fruit of unrighteousness in our lives. We like it better if we can keep it in the physical realm. Something concrete to pin it on. Something, you know, not my fault.

I think if we could really understand how connected we are, spirit-soul-body, we wouldn’t feel so threatened.

You see, while absolutely, 100% of my symptoms were as real and physical as they could be, behind them or the cause of them, was spiritual. The physical is affected by the spiritual. I believe this is the case way more than we know and way, way more than we give credit for.

If we had an understanding of how our thoughts affect our bodies, how our thoughts, participation with sin affects the physical, we wouldn’t be so ‘scared’ to admit that a little repentance and deliverance might alleviate some of the symptoms, syndromes and diseases we are dealing with.

When we think of ‘sin’, we think of the more obvious sins, lying, stealing, cheating, murder, ect. and we think, ‘what sin could be behind my illness?’ Well, I am talking about things like FEAR!, guilt, rejection, envy, jealousy, feeling unloved, self-hatred, self-bitterness, and more. (these are every bit sin as the above sins)

So many of us suffer needlessly because we are looking in the wrong place for healing! Many, many “diseases” and “syndromes” are not going to be healed through diet, or supplements or drugs or by ‘confessing’ yourself healed.

My heart aches, especially for the Mamas who are sick and have no clue why. (My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge . . . Hosea 4:6) If you know a Mama or are a Mama who is sick with some malady like Adrenal Fatigue/Exhaustion, any of the symptoms that go with it like, depression, anxiety, hypo-glycemia, extreme exhaustion, hypo or hyper-thyroid or any other ‘syndrome’, please feel free to email me or ask any questions. I certainly do NOT have all the answers, but if there is any way I can help, I would be honored.

And he hath put a new song in my mouth, even praise unto our God: many shall see it, and fear, and shall trust in the LORD. (Psalm 40:3)

Look What I Found While I Was Organizing

Do you see all those bottles? Do you know how much money was spent on all those pills? And this isn't even all the supplements I WAS on!

I have since repented for turning to man and man's ways to find healing.

For me, the sins behind Adrenal Fatigue were, fear (as in stress and anxiety), performance, drivenness, and perfectionism, lack of trust in God, self and others. Also, a lot of self-unforgiveness and self- bitterness. Perhaps I will elaborate on these in future posts sharing how they manifested in my life.

To make a very long story short, up to 80% of illnesses have spiritual roots. Meaning, there is sin behind them and when the sin is repented of and removed many people are restored to health. No, not every case is the same nor do ALL illnesses have spiritual roots. Sickness is a curse, though. Deuteronomy 28 lists the blessings and the curses. Not one sickness is in the list of the blessings, but on the contrary sicknesses are in the list of curses.

IF YOU will listen diligently to the voice of the Lord your God, being watchful to do all His commandments which I command you this day, the Lord your God will set you high above all the nations of the earth. And all these blessings shall come upon you and overtake you if you heed the voice of the Lord your God. . .

But if you will not obey the voice of the Lord your God, being watchful to do all His commandments and His statutes which I command you this day, then all these curses shall come upon you and overtake you . . . (Deut. 28:1, 2, 15)

Obedience brings blessings. Disobedience brings curses.

BLESS (AFFECTIONATELY, gratefully praise) the Lord, O my soul; and all that is [deepest] within me, bless His holy name!
Bless (affectionately, gratefully praise) the Lord, O my soul, and forget not [one of] all His benefits-- Who forgives [every one of] all your iniquities, Who heals [each one of] all your diseases . . . (Psalm 103:1-3)

If you are suffering from an illness, it is at the very least worth it to humble yourself and seek the Lord to see if maybe, just maybe, there is a more excellent way. I had to change my mindset (as it was wrong), threw out a bunch of lies, renew my mind, and receive the truth that makes me free.

Beloved, I wish above all things that thou mayest prosper and be in health, even as thy soul prospereth. (3 John 2)

A Reason To Celebrate!!

I was looking back over my calendars (where I keep track of symptoms, my cycle, ect.) because I knew it was about a year ago that I got sick.

Sure enough, one year ago today is when I got sick. Looking back over the weeks and weeks that turned into months of extreme and profound weakness and depression (and countless other symptoms) I almost cannot believe that I am SO healed and we are heading off to some friend's cottage to kayak and play all day! Praise the Lord!

When I looked back and actually put the last year into weeks of feeling okay, weeks of barely functioning, and weeks of not at all functioning, I am shocked at how bad I really was. It seems so distant now, as I feel so good, so joyful, so full of life. I often times have to hold myself back, I think I scare people with my excitement and zeal. ;-)

I feel like I could bounce off the walls some days, there is so much energy, comparatively speaking. I will often just marvel at how 'normal' I feel on the inside. I really began to wonder if I would ever feel this happy again, ever. Don't get me wrong, I am still a very 'normal' human being with plenty of sin nature left to deal with, if you know what I mean.

Anyway, I just had to let you know that God is so faithful, no matter what the circumstances. No matter how hopeless everything might seem to you right now, all is not lost and He is still on the throne!

No sickness, no depression, no symptoms, no wayward child, no financial difficulty, no difficult marriage, no weariness, no lying devil, NOTHING is out of His reach and out of HIS control! Put your hope in Him. Anything else you put your hope in will fail you eventually, He never will!


Sing with me today!

Praise God, from whom all blessings flow;
Praise Him, all creatures here below;
Praise Him above, ye heav'nly host;
Praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost!

One more thing, below is one of my favorite songs right now that might just be an encouragement to you. Have a wonderful weekend. I am so thankful for all of you!
J.J. Heller, Back Home

Earnestly Remembering

I was reading Deuteronomy 7, 8, and 9 yesterday and was soaking it up! I shared it with Brian and the children last night. We were in awe of what the Lord has done in our family, but more dramatically in my health. (here are the links about my healing)

These verses so struck me.

"You shall not be afraid of them, but remember [earnestly] what the Lord your God did to Pharaoh and to all Egypt,

The great trials which your eyes saw, the signs, the wonders, the mighty hand and the outstretched arm by which the Lord your God brought you . . ." (Deut. 7:18-19)

It was with signs and wonders and the mighty outstretched arm that the Lord brought me out of my illness and darkness. My enemies were too big for me. There was nothing 'I' could do to bring healing to my body and mind. No diet. No amount of green smoothies. None of the thousands of supplements I took. Not one of the well over $10,000 could bring healing.


Know, recognize, and understand therefore that the Lord your God, He is God, the faithful God, Who keeps covenant and steadfast love and mercy with those who love Him and keep His commandments, to a thousand generations (Deut. 7:9)

We marvelled at all He has done. We recounted how He delivered the Israelites with an awesome display of His power and how He did the same in my life. We joked about how He could have snuck the Israelites out one by one, but instead it was a miraculous deliverance. He also could have chosen to heal me slowly, over time, (which, by the way, is no less awesome and powerful) but for some reason He chose to heal and deliver me with an awesome display of His power and might, and with an outstretched arm.

We marvel, we revel, we praise and most of all we earnestly remember!


We will not hide them from their children, but we will tell to the generation to come the praiseworthy deeds of the Lord, and His might, and the wonderful works that He has performed. (Ps. 78:4)

(We had lots of errands to run last night, so we were going to miss our devotion time when we remembered we have a bible in the van! I highly suggest you have bible in your vehicle, you don't ever have to miss devotions again. And, they are all tied down, I mean buckled;-)

Mourning Into Dancing!

While it is true that the Lord used a book and a ministry to speak to my heart, let us not forget that it is the Truth that sets us free (John 8:32) And it is because of His great mercy and love that He has delivered me!

Jesus said:

The Spirit of the Lord [is] upon Me, because He has anointed Me to preach the good news (the Gospel) to the poor; He has sent Me to announce release to the captives and recovery of sight to the blind, to send forth as delivered those who are oppressed [who are downtrodden, bruised, crushed, and broken down by calamity], To proclaim the accepted and acceptable year of the Lord [the day when salvation and the free favors of God profusely abound. (Luke 4:18-19)

It is our Lord, ladies!! Jesus has set me free! He has healed me!

I have always tried to cling to these verses:

For His anger is but for a moment,

but His favor is for a lifetime or in His favor is life.

Weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning
You have turned my mourning into dancing for me;

You have put off my sackcloth and girded me with gladness,

(The children and I literally dancing for joy yesterday morning!)

To the end that my tongue and my heart and everything glorious within me may sing praise to You and not be silent. O Lord my God, I will give thanks to You forever.

(Ps. 30)

I don’t know if I have ever LIVED them to the degree that I am living them now! You are just going to have to deal with me gushing about my God for awhile.

Oh, to the end that my tongue and my heart and everything glorious within me may sing praise to YOU! and not be silent. O Lord my God, I will give thanks to You forever!!

Dear sisters, don’t give up. Don’t stop believing Him, He will come and save you. Do not faint, He will come! If you are of a fearful heart, Be strong, fear not! Behold your God will come with vengeance; with the recompense of God He will come and save you. (Is. 30:4)

He absolutely is no respecter of persons, what He has done for me, He will do for you! You too will be the ransomed of the Lord and shall come to Zion with singing, and everlasting joy shall be upon your heads; you shall obtain joy and gladness, and sorrow and sighing shall flee away! (Is. 35:10)

Hold fast to Him, and when you can’t hold on any longer, know that He is holding you and that there are saints all around believing and praying for you. And even our High Priest is interceding for you. He will come!! I have, just now prayed for your deliverance! He loves you, and He is so faithful. Continue to trust and wait.

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Deliverance Has Come

Where do I start? These past several weeks have been amazingly wonderful. Very intense and painful, at times, but so wonderful. I have more hope than I have had in a very long time and I know the Lord has truly begun a deep work of healing and sanctification in my life. Of course, He has been doing it all along, I am just now being able to see some fruit of it.

As you know I have been very sick for about ten months now. We have been seeking God while pursuing natural medicine. All the while I have felt that what was going on physically was a spiritual issue and when the Lord showed me just what He wanted for me I would be well. I had no idea how 'spot on' I was. I began to feel like taking all the supplements and going to all the appointments were out of obedience to Brian and possibly for my doctor's sake. (we have a strong relationship with my doctor who is a believer) I began to realize that my doctor, my diet, nothing I did in the natural was going to bring about healing. That it was a spiritual issue.

Don't get me wrong, I hoped something would bring the healing! I wanted to put my hope into this diet or that diet. Maybe a cleanse, maybe a fast. Maybe going all raw for a season. (though I know this went against what I knew about food and God, I was desperate and wanted wellness so bad!) Maybe if I found the right supplements or the right combination. I knew in my heart all these things wouldn't bring healing, yet I pursued them, hoping I was wrong and just missing something.

The Lord had two people email a book suggestion that I poo-pooed. The first time (I can't remember who you are, if you were the one, please email me so I can give you a giant kiss!) I saw the title and description of the book, I thought, 'great, another book on healing. Like I don't already have shelves of books on healing. No thanks, been there, done that. I know, not all that teachable ;-)

The second time I also blew it off because I saw in the reviews that the book taught that disease had spiritual roots and that sin could be the cause of my disease. Well HELLO, I beat myself up enough, thank you very much. The last thing I need is someone telling me to work harder to overcome my sin so I will be well! Boy, was I wrong!

That second time, though, I couldn't leave it alone. I kept going to the website and nosing around. I prayed that if God wanted me to have it that I would be open to it, otherwise to just take it out of my mind. Well, within about one days time, I ordered it!

When it came I could not put it down. I opened it right up to find where it talked about what was wrong with me and much to my surprise, this book had nailed me to a tee!!!! I have learned a lot about the Endocrine system and the hypothalamus gland so I understood immediately what it was saying. It all clicked and began to pull all the pieces of the puzzle together.

I decided to go to the beginning of the book and read it from cover to cover. I am not exaggerating when I say that my jaw was literally dropped open pretty much the whole time I was reading it. I kept telling Brian that every puzzle piece of my life that is out there floating around is being put together. I was shocked. So much of my life, the way I thought, the things I have been taught. Somebody had been reading my mail, that I was sure of. (wink)

The ministry behind the book is called Be In Health and they offer a program at their campus in Georgia. It is a week long program called For My Life. We began to try to arrange a trip down there immediately. I knew that I knew this was from my Father and I wanted it all. Well, we just did not have a peace about the arrangements with the children. We decided to take the online version of the program called For My Life Online. This way we could do it with the children instead of going down to GA for a week and then trying to teach them all we had learned.

The online program is about 32 hours of teaching and we quickly rearranged our whole life to fit these teachings in. We all are forever changed. I cannot believe the wholeness and healing that this teaching has brought to our family. In my mind, I thought it was just about me and me getting healed, physically. Boy, was I wrong! The verse that keeps coming to my mind as I sit here with my jaw still dropped open is:

Now to Him Who, by the action of His power that is at work within us, is able to carry out His purpose and do superabundantly, far over and above all that we dare ask or think infinitely beyond our highest prayers, desires, thoughts, hopes, or dreams. (Eph. 3:20)

I am really struggling right now, because I so want to be able to pour everything I have learned into everyone I love, including you ladies!! I know this is a work of God and not for everybody right now, but you know when you get a real taste of Truth and freedom you just want to give to everyone?? Remember when you first got saved and you wanted to run out and tell everyone and get them saved too? That is how it feels! I feel totally inadequate to put to words all we have learned (nor do I think I have to, I just want to ;-) and just what this has done for our family, for us individually, for our marriage, for our future generations! I just feel like I could bust! I really think this type of teaching should be considered 'Christianity 101' and feel every family could and would benefit from it. We are considering making sure the future spouses of our children sit through this teaching before they get married, it is that big. (of course, we will let the Lord lead that, just telling you how huge this is to us)

One more thing, it is not like we have never had this type of teaching before. I think we have sat under or been taught just about every type of teaching within Christianity. I mean from the 'name it and claim it' prosperity message all the way over to a very passive 'sovereignty of God' type teaching. ( I am not knocking or judging any of these lines of thinking, I am just saying, we've been around) It could just be where we are in life and what the Lord is doing, but I really don't think I have ever felt like so much teaching just plain old made sense and has made the Word of God come more alive in my heart more than ever! We are very much 'Word of God' type people. We love the Word! We were thrilled to hear so much Truth taught. Yes, no man, no church is perfect and that is where we are responsible to be like the Bereans and also to study and be able to rightly discern the truth.

I have hopes and plans of future posts. I would like to do a post on who, IMHO, I think would benefit from these teachings. Trust me, you don't have to be 'sick' with a physical illness to be changed forever by these teachings!

I would like to do a book review of A More Excellent Way.

I would like to share from some of the teachings and how the spoke to my heart and brought deliverance and freedom.

Maybe a post on a little more of my testimony, physically. Maybe even have some of the children share their hearts and even Brian, if he would be so kind. (batting eyelashes)

Thank you ALL who have been praying and a part of this journey. It's not over yet, but the Lord has brought such deliverance!!

Praise God from Whom all blessings flow!

Stay Tuned!

Shouts - Squeals - Jumping - Dancing!!

I simply could not decide what picture to put up that best described what I am feeling today!!

I chose this one because I feel like shouting from the rooftops just how awesome our God is!!!

He is SO AWESOME and FAITHFUL!!!!!!

Did I hurt your ears?

Or

This one. I feel like a thirsty little girl who has just taken a huge drink of refreshment!!

We finished our online seminar this morning and it was awesome! I have so much to share, I don't even know where to start. I have been praying about when and what and the Lord is having me go slow and orderly. You know me, I just want to spill it all out there!!!!

I do want to share that I have been set free from so much and that for the past two mornings I have awakened with a smile on my face before I even open my eyes! Do you know how big this is!! I have hope and joy flooding my heart and bubbling out! I feel like ME! I just wanted to thank you all for praying for us. (don't stop if the Lord leads ;-) We are all doing so great and much healing and restoring has and is happening. I have tried to journal it all, but it is way, way too much. I will trust the Lord with what and how I share.

Thank you!!! Have a great day!!